Aesthetic Perfection - Surface

its become clear that noone knows im coming apart see pride means nothing when youre crawling on the ground if only youd see for once in your life i fall seem to replace a life paralyzed by apathy we crawl now can seem to deny all the things that destroy me threatened by a common delusion a misplaced sense of immunity brought down why such abuse on me? because, you see, i ask for it i ask for it i dont care it doesnt matter you wont need it anyway i cant feel i dont believe it it wont numb all the pain i dont care it doesnt matter you wont need it anyway i cant feel i dont believe it this wont take you from your place to die i thought things would improve with time pathetic notions from a broken man let go detatch from ties that bind just scatter carry on leave behind your worthless solution try to accept what you cannot be why not just give up and waste away? at least on the surface everything is fine