Assemblage 23 - Outsider

When the door's always closed Isolation imposed I try the best I can But the gulf is too wide And I can't stand astride Such a gigantic span This impossible distance Obscures my existence Like fog hugging autumn shores And it's building inside With each wound to my pride I can't take this anymore I'm standing right here I've not disappeared And yet you look right through me Do I not exist? A presence unmissed An unseen identity I'm on the outside Looking inward These impenetrable walls restrain me I could tear them down But I'm afraid Of what is on the other side It’s not my intention To covet attention At least no more than I'm due But you turned your back And left me in the black With nothing I could cling to Was it too much to ask Such an abhorrent task To simply acknowledge me? Some small recognition To raze this partition That makes me feel so empty I'm on the outside Looking inward These impenetrable walls restrain me I could tear them down But I'm afraid Of what is on the other side I'm at the point I might break Alone and displaced An unwelcome nobody I'm a vessel adrift Traversing the rift Consumed by an angry sea Pushed aside by the crowd And I'm screaming out loud Until my voice is raw But I won't go away From this perverse ballet As long as I've breath to draw I'm on the outside Looking inward These impenetrable walls restrain me I could tear them down But I'm afraid Of what is on the other side