Before I Turn - Crux

[Verse 1] I wake up and I'm sitting upon The  edge of a chair with no light to shine My  eyes adjust to the darkness and feel for a sign My arms are locked in close and I can't feel a thing I clench my jaw till my face starts to sting "Decisions,  decisions, you've got one more to make Just  one more life for you to selfishly take" I'm just an empty host, watch as I fall She's  just a vixen, conning me to end it all [Chorus] Take me, leave me out to dry Be my aggressor, tell me not to cry Heaven turn me into a thrall Give  me the courage to end it all [Verse 2] Time begins to haunt me as I Focus on the depths of the click The clock hands wrap around my neck To show me all the pain I inflict Please tell me if you lived Would you say that it's true? Would you still love me as the mother Or the lover I once knew? [Bridge] She's just too real to me She's just a fucking dream She rests inside of my mouth And makes me bite my tongue, the blood comes rushing out Draining, draining, the blood drains away Dying, dying, I'm dying today Feeling, feeling, I'm feeling alive Devil, devil, I give you my life You might also like Mother Before I Turn Claustrophobic Before I Turn Viva la Vida Coldplay [Chorus] Take me, leave me out to dry Be my aggressor, tell me not to cry Heaven turn me into a thrall Give me the courage to end it all Take me, leave me out to dry Be my aggressor, tell me not to cry Heaven turn me into a thrall Give me the courage to end it all [Outro] "Darkness overtakes the room No sight, no sound, nobody As I perspire I feel the cold chill of sweat Slide down my body, slicing me like a frozen blade The room, although enclosed Gains the presence of a frigid wind nearing me It's grim, it's deathly, it's beautiful My tongue rests between my teeth As I hesitate to lock my jaw shut The frigid presence wraps around me like motherly apathy "Clench your jaw shut, it will all be over soon No more pain, no more agony No more living with the immense guilt That I have inflicted on you Do it my son, I swear that you'll die"