J. Cole - Breakdown

[Verse 1: J. Cole] Look, I just shed tears homie and now I ain't to proud to admit it Just seen my father for the first time in a minute And when I say a minute I mean years man Damn, a whale could have swam in them tears fam Cause as I left him I reflected on my younger days When it was just me and my brother and my mother played Father, cause no other man bothered Not even my biological, it never seemed logical But I accepted it cause I ain't know no better Thought I was brighter than a Polo sweater No pops was like Martin with no Coretta So many things you could have told me And saved me the trouble or lettin' my mistakes show me I feel like you barely know me And that's a shame cause our last name is the same That blood type flowin' through our veins is the same My mama left you and it may be that anger's to blame But that's no excuse, only you and God know the truth And why you only gone monthly, barely ever saw me Spend some summer's with you and played with my cousin Maury Maybe I should be tellin' you fuck you cause you selfish But I want a father so bad, I can't help it I break down, I break down Can't help but break down [Verse 2: J. Cole] I never thought I'd see my mama on that shit man It's fuckin' with her body, now she sit down I wanted a big house with a white picket fence and a pool Who would have ever thought that it would come to this, man? Quicksand is what this life feel like That shit these rappers kick is nothin' like real life You made a milli off of servin' hard white? yeah right My mama tell you what sticking to that pipe feel like Stupid niggas, ain't heard of coppers shootin' niggas? I swear to god, wish I could bullet proof my niggas Can't get no jobs, but they still recruitin' niggas We tryna stand tall when it gets to crucial niggas Break down! We break down.. [Verse 3: J. Cole] Servin' time, lie down And she don't want nobody to know, it started 25 pounds By the time he get out, she gonna be 4 Now will his girl stay down? Ain't no doubt, yeah she love him fo sho But temptation stays round And if she strayed, how could he ever know? And so, she goes to the club on the weekend A little freakin', but them niggas holla But she never speakin', but tonight I see the devil creepin' Cause she been lonely, she ain't felt a man in 7 seasons Damn! She do the best that she can Her mama tellin' her to find another man She college educated with a felon boyfriend That's what she thinkin' tonight Maybe she's right, but please Stay down mama! Gotta be strong, don't break down mama! Please..