mind.in.a.box - Doubt

I felt it happening so fast, although at first it took a while. I was no one to dwell on the past, but it chased away my smile. I felt no grave questions to ask, until they burst into the open. I did not see the fragile mask, atop all that was unspoken. did I walk down the right path? did I make the right decisions? it is then that I feel doubt, afraid that it is all I am. it pervades my life throughout, and there is no one else to blame. sometimes it makes me want to cry, and let it out as best I might. sometimes I feel I want to die, and fade away into the night. I thought my life can be a blast, with odds that are there to defy. I did not mind it to be fast, never look back and rather die. I did not think the dice were cast, with fate looming in the distance. but I felt it take hold at last, when it crushed all my resistance. it is then that I feel doubt, afraid that it is all I am. it pervades my life throughout, and there is no one else to blame. sometimes it makes me want to cry, and let it out as best I might. sometimes I feel I want to die, and fade away into the night. I will live with it all the same. I will live with it all the same. it is then that I know doubt, but it is not all I am. I will bring my life about, and live with it all the same.