E.So - To Confront

To confront deep inside of me visions of being holy if only time seemed real to me now than I could keep peace down in my mind for this is not true visions but false patience of being clear this mask is straight from my soul solid gold if you could see what I am deep inside allow this person to ware off and see a different person growing in silence but watching you excited to be alive and maybe I seem alive confronting you I am afraid and maybe I seem to be sane to you I am, lying I'm lying better hold to the status given who am I and looking for something write down what you think of me profit or something else real for a second time I lost all my answers to hope now this loss doesn't end with out challenge to feel better end all these fronts with in a window decision lost you feel alive how can I stop this from growing and turn around and maybe I seem alive confronting you I am afraid and maybe I seem to be sane to you I am, lying I'm lying