Catharsis - Pro Memoria

I pass my way through pictures of her cries And pain in my scarred soul's like clouds in skies I recognize my guilt... it's my fault... but I see dark sufferings breaking fender heart My life paints black, I can't live it right Cold winds of sorrow blow in the night I see the gates with painter-draw landscapes I follow "it" to path that leads away I feel the dawn My cage is left You go towards the lawn Avoiding inner death You made me be alone For better love you strive You're free of soul stone I'm free of soul life I ask my angel: "where is the key?" (shadows of deeds in past don't let me be) "Your painful sins will make your cold soul dead You are to confess" n "to pray, my son", – he said My mind recalls the circle of black swans They whirled around the lake and chose wax dolls Which symbolized the torment of her heart Dark birds were silent waiting for the judge I feel the dawn My cage is left You go towards the lawn Avoiding inner death You made me be alone For better love you strive You're free of soul stone I'm free of soul life (it wasn't recorded on the album... why?): The lord came in, sky-dwellers took wax forms I never thought in past so cruel I was My sentence was to distimate remains In land of tears where sorrow always reigns I suddenly appeared amid the rocks My hearing recognized how dead's soul knocks I was condemned to wander'n'to regret Fulfilling duties of all who made sad I feel the dawn My cage is left You go towards the lawn Avoiding inner death You made me be alone For better love you strive You're free of soul stone I'm free of soul life (it wasn't recorded on the album... why?): I won't forget dark ghosts accusing me Judge and his silent words: "defense?.." – "will be..." I cried and whispered, than my question came: "Would she be happy?" ...he was banned to say When stars of night reflected in the sea Are mocked by romantic they try to flee They hide in waves, repugnant to their fate… I understood his words, it was too late… Chorus. (I think it is placed here.)