Atreyu - Slow Burn

It begins with a dark glowing ember, something black burning it's way out of me. Searing the flesh, pain is the only thing I feel, scars all I see. Oh no the fire's burning my insides again, what can I do to silence my desire tonight? Flames consuming reason leaving only ashes left you will catch me for regretting my decision, I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear, I can't just close my eyes. I know that it's killing me, and it's poisoning the best in me, but I say, I don't want to believe. what I see, I don't want to believe. So let me tell you more (tell you more) about the lies I lead. That is how I choose to douce the flames in gasoline Broken teeth replace the blackout memories in my head Wreckage from the past haunts me, shake me to the bone (to the bone) I know it's over but I can't go home tonight. But after this I feel as empty as the night before, feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more. Masochistic, nihilistic, urging backward thought My life's a mess and I can't find a way to fix it. I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear, I can't just close my eyes (my eyes, my eyes, my fucking eyes) I know that it's killing me, and it's poisoning the best of me, What I see, I don't want to believe. So let me tell you more, tell you more, about the lies I lead. Calling, calling out. The darkest reaches of my soul, are riddled with self-doubt. Crawling, crawling out, my will to fight will more than suffice, when others would lay down. It's only as dark as you make it. I know that it's killing me, and it's poisoning the best of me, but I say, I don't want to believe. So let me tell you more, tell you more about the lies I lead.