Hades Rising - Repined Thoughts

I'm screaming from the top of my lungs Whilst gasping for air That I need someway out Of my perpetual despair My self destructive yet Self healing affairs Of clouding my mind So I won't have to see What's inside I am on the edge of life Should I jump or should I hide There seems no other way out to be I grieve my life And only wish the pain inside Into oblivion to die Spiralling thoughts Constant solitude and grief Of what I am and what I could have been I can't escape what's inside But I can end the chaos if I only scream I am on the edge of life Should I jump or should I hide There seems no other way out to be I grieve my life And only wish the pain inside Into oblivion to die I long for silence And for ease of mind No screams of absence Of thoughts repined Some signs of solitude No woes and bane Some sign of quietude Not quintessence of pain I long to jump Freefall towards death So I can embrace The beginning to my end