Foreboding Ether - Plagued Skies

To amend a trend that’s embedded or end up a victim On track for relapse still attached to aspects of trash distraction We don’t always see logically toying with poison My clear skies deprived until the crime is rectified In purgatory searching for redemption Rigid and constrained by reckless days failing in subtle ways at first When left unchecked getting wrecked not a shred of self respect Last minute bound to turn it round I’m ticking every box I know I should Kick my arse because I could Prime times we’re not a product of seductive surroundings Beware times we blend right in Seen I’ve descended again it’s time to reel it in You’ve heard it all looking like a fool I might act contrite but you don’t lack hindsight A few tonight for old times’ sake Or scout out a new routine A clean means to get endorphins Competing scenes repeating Just need to abstain for the first days Finding the strength to snap out of it Got a brand new perspective can’t believe it has been so easy But don’t be deceived in thinking things are different now Even just a sip can be the tipping point Back to where you’ve been at the beginning hitting home you have to start again Temporary temptation when frustrated is a test of will wait until you feel the need recede to see you can first hand Fuck It will be fine it’s just a matter of time to adjust Changing inside The weight of mistakes built up in your mind Now you know More likely to fall with no goals in place to tenacious patterns The thought of something we find exciting makes struggling righteous Give the focus purpose or stay the same and maintain a familiar routine Nothing to show no control at all Grow old never knowing what struggling can do for you Fine in a paradigm of impulsive design gunna die Why give a fuck? Just redline Do something new return restarted Change is cathartic with no targets festered stressed getting tested Finding I declined Confined to a paradigm of impulsive design though malign could be turned round in no time Inclined to excess so unless it’s expressed in a positive context ya gunna regress See the curse as purely misspent potential Living excessive is a gift at a risk When short term saviours lead to antisocial behaviour Indulging to maintain keeping checks on the brain Am I slipping? Knowing just how low you can go Enthralled to show more control It will be fine it’s just a matter of time to adjust Changing inside the weight of mistakes built up in your mind Now you know